The Suffering of Jesus Christ

By Apostle Tonya

And he bearing his cross went forth into a place called the place of a skull, which is called in the Hebrew Golgotha:  Where they crucified him, and two other with him, on either side one, and Jesus in the midst.  John 19:17-18

The placement of the Cross of Yeshua HaMashiach, in the center, would seemingly point to be the focal point of the Crucifixion of our Blessed Redeemer. John 19:18

In the Holy Scriptures, we read of the Lord Jesus’ earthly Ministry and the warfare He endured as the jealously of the Jewish leaders of His day increased and influenced their hearts to purpose to commit to their tragic decision to oppose the Lord’s Ministry. 

It was the spirit of envy which would be used as satan’s strategy to ultimately use the Jewish leaders to Crucify the Lord Jesus.  These leaders hearts would become an easy target to host and carry out the plan of Lucifer.  Therefore, we must assume satan continued to observe the leaders as they grew in being consumed with their hatred and intimidation of Yeshua.  The jealously would become dangerous and release the heels of envy to enter in as the Lord’s miracles, fame and followers continued to spread and increase in its numbers. Most assuredly, it was the door of envy that opened during this ancient time to manifest the most tragic story ever written:  the hatred and rejection of His Majesty, the Son of God by His own.  This is most certainly something for us all to learn from for as it is written, “Jealously is cruel as the grave.” Song of Solomon 8:6

Most surely, it may be hard for some to imagine how the religious leaders during this ancient time who were consequently extremely privileged to walk side-by-side with the Son of God, refused to yield to His authority and Ministry.  It is no great wonder then why we read ofttimes our Blessed One rebuked and confronted the Pharisees for their wicked hearts.  Matthew 23:13-26. Surely, our Lord knew what was to come.

In thy Lord’s Earthly ministry, the hearts of the leaders opposing Him were full of hypocrisy. They refused to see the Blessed Master (with the great fame because of the miracles He performed) had not been sent by the Father to be their equal or even to be coronated by man.  This religious thinking whereby the Risen Lord abhorred remaineth an disturbing thorn even in the church today.  

Our lowly King, whom ofttimes the Bible records the Jewish leaders audaciously accused of blasphemy was indeed Messiah, the Word manifested in Flesh: the I AM.  Yet, in their distorted perception and commitment to their traditions of how the King of Glory would appeareth to them they walked tragically in the greatest deception recorded in their refusal to bow to the Lord Jesus. 

The Blessed Holy Spirit is faithful to revealeth to us through the Beloved Disciple John in the Book of John that the Romans positioned the Blessed Lord Jesus to be Crucified in a city where the census of the Jews was high in population. Further, we read ofttimes in righteous anger of the unstable Pilate and the title he chose to have created for our Lord, placed above the Cross: “JESUS OF NAZARETH THE KING OF THE JEWS”. John 19:20. The title written in Hebrew, Greek and Latin was another part of the plan of satan to humiliate the Son of God. 

Certainly, we see the plot coming to a apogee, don’t we?  satan, would use the Jews, Romans, Caiaphas and Pilate to openly shame our Redeemer in the presence of all of the Lord’s Kinsman even as our Blessed One was dying on the Cross.  The deceiver would even conspire that thy Lord’s grave be with wicked criminals.  Yet, blessed be the Lord God Almighty for in the enemy’s limited knowledge, he did not know of The Plan of Redemption from El De’ot, our God of all Knowledge. Neither would those enemies of thy Lord who purposed in their hearts to expedite His Crucifixion during Passover.  The leaders had not been privy to the Secret in The Throne Room of God:  our Blessed Lord Jesus had chosen to give of Himself during Passover.  The Father allowed these leaders to hasten His Son’s Execution and it would be our Sovereign God, the Father of Glory who would raise His Son on the third day. 

The wicked one’s decision to prominently place the Lord in the center amongst two criminals in his attempt to disgrace the Lord Jesus was the Father’s will.  The blessed Scriptures strengthen us with the passage recorded in the Book of the Prophet Isaiah, Chapter 53 verse 10:  Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief..  Surely, nothing in this Earth, nor in the kingdom of darkness has greater power than that of Elohim, our Creator!

This I know, the disfigurement of our Redeemer’s Face marred by the hands of the enemy; The Cross, approximately 300 pounds in weight that thy Lord carried with great trauma wounds in His Soul from the scourging until He could not carry it alone any longer; The Crown of Thorns from the Lord’s Beloved Israel crowned on His Bleeding Head to further mock our Lamb of God; The Master’s Robe whereby the Word of God records was made without seam and the soldiers who used the Master’ Robe to gamble with as our Lord was Dying; was all for us.  John 3:16

Our Great Sufferer bore this traumatizing suffering for love; for us.  O what tears I shed for my Beloved One. 

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Healing from Grief

By Apostle Tonya

During many occasions I have written of a certain time in the past where I walked the path of suddenly grieving a loved one.  As the Dearest Comforter graced me to heal from the long season of grieving my mother, I discovered many things about myself:  I most enjoyed long walks and quiet talks with thy Lord which became a great comfort for me and caused me to be most compassionate to those who mourn.

There is invariably a valley season whereby is also birthed with the painful closure that come with the loss of a loved one’s time in the Earth.   In those pivotal life-changing moments we must be certain to seek thy Lord for His strength, and healing. The Holy Spirit shall be faithful to shew us things to come in what ofttimes becometh to us an unexpected, painful and sudden new beginning. In our mourning season, thy Lord shall also be faithful to answer our prayers to giveth us His will and purposes for the new time of our lives. John 16:13 

Most recently, I had the blessed opportunity to interview Troia L. Butcher whom became acquainted with grief in the losses of her loved ones and in it she subsequently birthed a ministry serving the Lord Jesus.  I pray you will most blessed by the interview.

And He that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new.  And He said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful. Revelation 21:5 

Apostle Tonya: I rejoice with you for the release of your book, Soul Ties, Letters of love. Would you share what your heart is for the reader of the book who is in a season of grief? 

Troia:  I wrote SoulTies, Letters of Love: Learning to live through Loss, because I needed a way to release the pain from the loss of my best friend and my grandmother. I was very angry during that period in my life and realized that I did not want to get lost in the anger and the pain, so I began to write. I started by beginning to write letters of love to some of those who passed through my life….to let them know that even though they were no longer here I carried them with me.  

The book begins with my paternal grandmother who passed away when I was four-years-old and it ends with a letter to my best friend. It was meant to heal my own pain and loss, but it is my hope that others could use this book to begin their grief journey. 

Apostle Tonya: Troia, would you kindly share your testimony on how thy Lord used you for His glory to birth the ministry to heal those broken-hearted because of the mourning and loss of a loved one?  

Troia: I believe that I was always called to this work, but my ministry did not start fully until I experienced several significant losses in a six-month period. It was the first time I began to understand grief and I was alone. When I began my journey towards healing, I also understood that I was not the only one to feel this way, and that was when my ministry was birthed. 

Apostle Tonya: What was the Scripture that the Holy Spirit spoke to you when you began to serve those whom are broken-hearted?  

Troia: It was Matthew 5:4: Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted and Isaiah 41:10: Fear thou not: for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness

Troia L. Butcher

For more information on Troia L. Butcher, I encourage you to visit her websites at www.gghealing.org, and www.justtroia.com

Friends, this is the first time in nearly three years of writing on Heaven’s Pen, our Holy Lord has willed me to occasionally include interviews of His Daughters whom are serving Him along with devotional prayers, and teachings on the End-times and the glory realm.  Surely, it is my prayer you shall be most encouraged with the Divine features of our brethren on the Lord’s blog for His blessed glory.  

May thy Lord giveth you more grace, purpose and answereth your petitions.  

Holy One, we shall declare Your greatness in the Earth in unity, purity, and reverence. Amen. 

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A Season of Change

By Apostle Tonya

Back in the fall of 2019, the Blessed Holy Spirit revealed to me His will for me to begin with the blogging of prayers, testimonials, and revelatory teachings of our Beautiful Holy Master for His purpose to use the ministry to edify and encourage the Body of Christ. The Blessed One was also most faithful to giveth this most special assignment a glorious name, Heaven’s Pen.   

By the Spirit of God’s grace, in nearly three years of posting almost weekly on the blog; nearly 200 writings have been published and it is visited by thousands weekly. Thy Holy Lord be glorified.  

For some time, thy Holy Lord has been preparing me for a change of direction with Heaven’s Pen as He continueth to prepare me to conclude the season of virtual only ministry to return me back to publicly preaching the Gospel in churches throughout the United States.  During this most holy and intense preparation with thy Lord, I have continued in His will managing the daily operations of the ministry whereby consequently He has most astoundingly increased with His followers and with global exposure in the past months. Thy Lord was surely faithful to promise me this in the year of 2018.

And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from the Lord. Luke 1:45  

Thy Holy Lord be praised, beginning this month the blog shall move into a new season wherefore I shall continueth to publish devotional prayers, and with the occasional inclusion of media interviews of women of God throughout the world whom humbly serve the Blessed Master. There shall be End-Time and glory realm teachings published as thy Lord lead me and my schedule accommodate.  

I cease not to giveth thy Lord thanks for your continued support of the ministry over the past three years and for those whom are new friends to the ministry. It is surely my honor to continueth to serve you for what I pray is many years to come as the ministry continueth to grow supernaturally. I am surely looking forward to meeting you and exalting our Holy One together with you in services in America.

May thy Lord be faithful to fulfill your petitions.  Amen.

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The Holy Garments of Jesus Christ

By Apostle Tonya

In the Book of John, Chapter 19 verse 23 and 24 we read a most agonizing text whereby surely causeth tears for our Blessed Master.  In these most heart wrenching verses recorded of our Lord’s Crucifixion, a dramatic scene of blatant theft and desecration against the Son of God tragically occurred at the Cross.  His Majesty’s Garments and Robe worn humbly by Him when our Lord Served in His Holy Ministry were torn and gambled for by four Roman Soldiers.  The Scripture records the soldiers tore four parts of Jesus Christ Garments and each part of His Blessed Garments were divided to each of the soldiers.   

It is surely most painful for us to read of our Great Sufferer’ pain and suffering while the soldiers committed this unfathomable criminal act against Him.  We might also ponder on what was the Strategy from the Holy One of Israel when He allowed His only Begotten Son’s Garments to be wickedly torn and gambled for by these soldiers.  Most certainly, throughout this passage on the historical events of the Death of our Saviour, the Holy Spirit is most faithful to reveal truth and revelation that although it was most surely the Father’s will, the Brutal Crucifixion of the Saviour of the World was fulfilled most horrifically as prophesied in the Old Testament of the Holy Bible.  

As we are most careful to study and examine the hearts of the soldiers, we may conclude they were most jealous, and wrothful men whom clearly lacked temperance.  Consequently, in the Scriptures, the Holy One has given to us to study over 800 references of the heart. One particular passage is recorded in Song of Solomon 8:6: “Jealously is cruel as the grave.”   

The wicked hearts of those soldiers whom were indeed seemingly incited by their hatred and obvious intimidation of the miracles, teachings and Fame in the Ministry of Jesus Christ, made a most tragic decision in their part of the Blessed History of the Son of God.  Perhaps it was a fleeting terrible decision of the soldiers whereby resulted in their most merciless covenant to further disgrace, humiliate and shame Christ.  Certainly, the public demonstration of their rejection of the Lordship of Jesus Christ revealed the hearts of men in the days of our Beloved Lord whom we should surely be most affrighted if they walked in any measure of liberty in the Earth today.   

The four soldiers’ wickedness toward the Son of God and their hardened hearts that refused to show any measure of compassion to our Holy Master surely remindeth us of the ability of satan to identify and use a willing heart to kill, steal and destroy. John 10:10. This the enemy inherently seeks to accomplish in his attempt to further advance the plans and wickedness of his kingdom.   

In the Book of the Prophet Jeremiah, Chapter 17 verse 9, we read: “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?”  And so, it surely was on that most tragic day over two thousand years ago, when four men with the breath of God stood at the Blessed Cross of our Beloved Savior and committed the most inconceivable theft and mockery against the Son of God.  In their cowardice hearts, as Heaven watched, the four names were possibly Recorded in the Books of Heaven’s Court Room: The most brazen and wicked men who trespassed against the Lowly King as His Bleeding and unrecognizable Body was Nailed to the Cross, and He gasped for His Final Breaths; for us. 

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God and the Failed Plan of satan

By Apostle Tonya

The Roman soldiers, Jewish leaders, the tree, the flagrum and the crown of thorns used against the Lord Jesus were all created by The Creator, His Father.  Colossians 1:16 

It is surely unimaginable to read in the Holy Bible of the audacity of satan to believe his conspiracy could destroy the Son of God.  The brazen plot whereby included using the Father’s own Creation to kill His only Begotten Son, our Blessed Master, Who as the Scriptures recorded was there in the beginning is quite startling. John 1:1-3  

The enemy even included in his wicked plot to steal the heart of thy Lord’s Disciple, Judas Iscariot and to use the weak Disciple to initiate the betrayal and rejection of thy Lord’s own.  This, the enemy seemingly plotted to further cause our Blessed Master sorrow and great agony for the deceiver has always sought to steal covenants, love and destroy unity.  This strategic move from the enemy; while it ultimately did not give him the victory it released a war within thy Lord’s Closest Confidant’s and Staff and tragically birthed in our Most Holy Lord’s Ministry the spirits of treachery and division.  

Let us remember the enemy’s knowledge is limited and what he receiveth is what our Father allows.  The Secrets of the Throne Room are not always revealed before its time.  Surely, thy Lord is a most Mighty Powerful God and Strategist; no principality, power or being can outsmart our God!  

Beloved, the enemy can never hide his plots against us from our Omniscient all-Knowing God nor does he know of the Full Plan of thy Lord for us or of our victories already settled in Heaven. Amen.  

For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God: I will sit also upon the mount of the congregation, in the sides of the north: I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High. The Book of Isaiah, Chapter 14 verses 13-14.

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Loyalty to God

By Apostle Tonya

Most recently, I watched a most powerful message from an anointed man of God as he taught by the Spirit of God on the “Lessons from the Cave”.  During his message, the man of God released a most profound word from The Throne Room on the heart and its precious value to our Eternal Father.  After the message, I continued to meditate on the quote from the message wherefore reminded me of the Blessed Master’s commandment for us to love Him more than these. The Book of John, Chapter 21:15.

I must say, as I sat watching this blessed teaching wherefore was brilliantly taught with Scripture from the First Book of Samuel, Chapter 22, the Dearest Holy Spirit was faithful (as ofttimes He has done lately) to bring to my remembrance of a time of consecration in the year of 2018.  Suddenly, there in the cave of that time, the prophets had ceased to bringeth me the word as they had in the past. 1 Kings 18:4. I surely giveth thanks to our Blessed Teacher, Whom interrupted an interesting and ofttimes fruitful season of receiving from His Children then graciously choose to grant His favor to me to sit at His Blessed Feet and learn from Him of the High Cost of Loyalty to The Throne. 

In that time of isolation and preparing, the Holy One was certainly kind and generous to opened my eyes to eternal purposes and He continueth to teach of His loyalty and of Him as our Omniscient God Whom is most Holy, perfect and keepeth covenant with those that love and are loyal to Him.  

Friends, may our hearts be most loyal to thy Lord and speak wonderfully of Him; for this I have surely learned in the past years in this walk with Him; it is holy pleasantness to the Ears and Heart of our Holy God.  Malachi 3:16 

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A Prayer for our Nation

By Apostle Tonya

Holy Father, we bless You for Your holiness, mercy and faithfulness and we declare that You are our Righteous, Holy God.  

Wonderful Father, Whom causes the wars to cease we beseech You to hear our cry and attend unto our prayer as we cry out to You to end the violence, anger, division, dishonor, and unlawful protests whereby have destroyed businesses in our land because of the historic decision from the United States Supreme Court to overturn Roe v. Wade.  

Righteous Father, we ask You to giveth Your Children grace to accept the decision from the Highest Court in the Land as Your will. Prince of Peace, we plead with You to release Your Angels of Peace over Washington, D.C. and throughout the states, cities and towns in this Blessed Country. And, we declare blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord. 

Loving Father, we beseech You to remember the governors of each state in our Country. May You giveth them direction, wisdom, strength, and reveal Your will for them in this season. 

Righteous Father, we thank You for healing our Country. We bless You and ask You to giveth us Your heart in this matter and the grace to respond purely and holy in all manner of conversation. In the Blessed Holy Name of our Beloved Lord Jesus. Amen. 

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The Fragrance of The Holy Spirit

By Apostle Tonya

During the miraculous season of Christmas in the year of 2018, there came a season of the most unusual warfare against me.  After several months of that unexpected season, the Blessed Holy Spirit began to open my eyes of understanding to certain warning dreams He was most faithful to bestow upon me in a previous season.  As I began to meditate on the dreams, I suddenly realized the Lord had been most gracious to also give fundamental signs in them indicating there would become a long season with Him (for what I perceived was the Strategy of Heaven to suffer me for thy Blessed Master’s sake and causeth me to overcome opposition from the enemy).  

Ofttimes during that past time of preparation thy Dearest Holy Spirit Whom became my Closest Friend would guide me to pray strategically to overcome the enemy’s plots.  There were surely times when it appeared the enemy’s assignments would not cease and during those times the spirit of fear or discouragement would attempt to attack me.  In thy Lord’s faithfulness, He would come upon me with His strength to endure and oftentimes with an encouraging prophetic vision until every plot from the Deceiver was destroyed for His blessed glory.  The Spirit of God never spoke of defeat but in His lovingkindness continued to reminded me of His promises wherefore caused me to hope in my time of affliction.  

Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place.  The Second Book of Corinthians, Chapter 2 verse 14. 

On a wintry evening during the unusual Christmas season wherefore I have written of earlier, I remember profoundly I sat most quietly on a sofa just holding onto the Holy Bible.  The oppression at that Christmastime wherefore has always been a time I celebrate most wonderfully; held me in that past season with great, quiet sorrow.  And to my surprise my Dearest Holy Spirit had become terribly silent as He continued to rest His magnificent presence on me to keepeth me peaceful.  I surely tremble at the thought of that past season of spiritual warfare.  And consequently, I have not yet received the grace or have been led by the Holy Spirit to begin an in-depth study of that momentary affliction in the Scriptures or have heard of a precious believer share of it in their own testimony.  Thy Lord is kind and thoughtful. 

Magnificently, the suffering began to change the manner in how I responded to pain; thy Lord had suddenly given me grace to suffer and in it I became most quiet.  By the Blessed One’s abundance of grace, it also produced the fruits of longsuffering, and peace.  Most of my life, I had spent surrounded by people (oh, how I adored my life!), yet, in that past season wherefore changed the trajectory of my life; thy Lord instructed me to forsake it all for Him for a season.  In it, I was surely favored and was taught the Closeness of the Godhead and this teaching and revelation from the Holy Spirit continueth to transform me. 

During one of the occasions of sitting with thy Lord in this glorious season, I suddenly began to smell a glorious floral fragrance. This fragrance of suffering descended from the ceiling and surrounded the area where I sat.  Thereafter, the Blessed Holy Spirit began to supernaturally move me for what I gather He favored to me to giveth me understanding on why I was suffering in that wilderness season.  

As I continued to seek the Blessed Master, the Holy Spirit kept me most focused on certain Books in the Holy Bible, primarily He taught me about the Lord’s Earthly life and although I surely am not worthy I was bestowed a marvelous dream wherefore I saw our Dearly Beloved Lord along with one of His faithful disciples whom was worshipping at His Blessed Holy Feet during His Earthly Ministry.   

Since that past Christmas season, the Holy Spirit has continued to be most faithful to release His Blessed Fragrance when I am in prayer, worshipping Him in the reading of the Scriptures and ofttimes in the ministry. I am most grateful for His generosity and for the wonders of the Eternal One.

In the Book of Psalms, Chapter four verse five, king David by the Spirit of God wrote that we should offer the sacrifices of righteousness and put our trust in our Holy Lord.  I encourage you when in challenging trials and suffering seasons for thy Lord’s glory put your trust in our Great Deliverer.  Thy Lord is surely our hiding place and shall preserve us from the trouble wherefore is contrary to His will and also be kind to sing over us with His songs of deliverance.   

Amazing grace. How sweet the sound, that saved a wretch; like me.

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, and grace my fears relieved: how precious did that grace appear the hour I first believed. 

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The Blessed Hands of our Risen Lord

By Apostle Tonya

In the Scriptures, we read throughout thy Lord’s desire for His Children to fellowship.  Perhaps one of the dearest Scriptures of our Lord’s encouragement of fellowship is recorded in the Book of Saint John, Chapter 21 verse 12 when our Blessed Lord Jesus invited His Beloved Friends and Disciples to “Come and dine.”  Surely my heart becometh overwhelmed with love for our Risen Lord each time I read of Him Serving the grief-stricken Disciples; for in this most dramatic verse, our Lord Serves with the Blessed Hands that bore the marks from The Cross.  John 21:13. This is surely the greatest love.   
Let us remember as we prepare our tables to feast in the Word to be sure to invite the Blessed Master to be in the Center.  I want to also invite you to join me in fellowship during prayer, the Holy Podcast and upcoming live streaming of teachings as I am led by the Dearest Comforter.   

Friends, let us continueth grounded in faith and be not moved away from hope, abounding in love, walking in unity, forgiveness and gratitude for The Cross.  For this is the heart of our Beautiful King.   
The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.  Amen.

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Feasting on the Word of God

By Apostle Tonya

Surely, I most delight abiding with the Blessed Master reading and studying of His Birth, Earthly Ministry, and of His perfect and exemplary Leadership. And, it is the Heart of my Dearest Love and Beloved One whereby I love to teach on the most.

By thy Lord’s grace, the ministry has released The Glory catalog for summer 2022. It is my prayer you are led by the Holy Spirit to sit at the Feet of our Holy King and Feast on the teachings and prayers available. 

May thy Lord continueth to send you increase. Amen. 

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Mourning for the Precious Children in Texas

By Apostle Tonya

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1

Months ago, the Blessed Lord Jesus bestowed upon me a most heartbreaking vision. In the vision, I saw a painting of thy Lord’s Beautiful Face with a heavy tear coursing down His Right Eye as He looked sorrowfully down at the world.   

Yesterday’s most tragic shooting in Texas whereby the media reports 19 precious children perished while learning in Robb Elementary School in Uvalde, Texas caused me to weep deeply with thy Lord.  And, in the midst of the tears, thy Lord was most faithful as surely, I heard our Lord say: “No child should be hurt.”  

We surely mourn with the families of the precious children today.  Amen. 

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