Healing the Soul in Prayer

By Apostle Tonya

Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.  3 John 1:2

This past summer, during what would became a most intense season of spiritual warfare thy Blessed Master was faithful to remind me of dreams and visions which revealed its origin.  Surely, thy Lord is loyal to His Children who are in covenant with Him.  In His faithfulness, while in prayer the Father began confirming that the years of prophetic warnings of this were now being fulfilled. The revelation of it manifesting sent waves of my denial and brokenness. It immediately became a most tragic season where I became silently acquainted with grief. Our Merciful Father is our refuge and strength, a very present help in our times of trouble and He faithfully remained my comfort. Often, Angels would increase and strengthen me in order for me to receive and carry out the Blessed One’s will.  

Ofttimes, I received from the Holy Spirit as a young girl; not desiring to hear her Father’s truth concerning an enemy. This emotional response cost me in warfare, for it is the Father’s Truth which is our shield and buckler.  What seemingly occurred throughout the years as I engaged in warfare close to my heart would be a breach in the realm of the Spirit.  I would come to know that attacks on our emotions is certainly one of the most subtle attacks of the enemy to destroy believers and attempt to kill destinies. 

Surely, I have learned a marvelous truth:  it is in our surrendering unto thy Lord where He gently attend unto the most vulnerable places in our hearts.  Dear ones, His Bosom is the place where we can dwell safely, findeth rest and continue with our assignments. The Lord’s Chambers is where perfect love casteth out fear.  The spirit of fear can govern our emotions and it releases wounds in the soul.Often we unknowingly give place to the enemy in our lives by lacking self-control and without exercising discretion in the emotional management of attacks that are sent to our hearts. This is why we must be diligent to guard our hearts with all diligence from the enemy.  I encourage you to remaineth pure in heart, for it is the key to remaining hidden from the deceiver.

Consequently, the trauma in my soul began to manifest shortly after I accepted the revelation from thy Lord of which by His grace I have written.  Compounding on this season, for thy Lord’s glory, was an affliction in my body which began to become increasingly painful. Suddenly, as I slept I became awakened by great pain on my right-side. Oftentimes, the Holy Spirit, our faithful Comforter would supernaturally move my body to remind me He was with me in this suffering. Howbeit, the Movements of thy Lord would eventually come to an end without me having received the Master’s healing.  How ofttimes I pleaded with thy Healer to heal!  

Months would pass by before I would discern what it was the Faithful One expected me to learn in the afflictions:  it was His will for me to learn how to pray for the sick.  The healing would not be released until the trauma in the soul from that past season of spiritual warfare, its knowledge and revelation of it were bound.  Our Blessed Lord Jesus, the Sun of Righteousness touched my body to heal after I had received the soul healing from the enemy’s trauma. 

Beloved, your souls wounds must receive the Blessed Blood of our Lord Jesus. The Blood of the Lamb heals the oppressed and bindeth up the wounds.  How God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Ghost and with power:  who went about doing good, and healing all that were oppressed of the devil; for God was with him.  Acts 10:38.  Amen.

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Helping Hurting Children

By Apostle Tonya

He that hath pity upon the poor lendeth unto the Lord.. Proverbs 19:17

This coming fall, I will host a most blessed event:  a virtual benefit worship concert which will include worshippers and several speakers from around the world who will join together to help orphans.  This blessed mission to help orphans is most dear to my heart and it was during my consecration preparing for this healing ministry the Lord Jesus was faithful to giveth me also the charge to help hurting children.  

Friends, it is my prayer that you will desire to partner with me as I seek to increase support for these innocent children.  If you are led by the Holy Spirit to lend your hand, you may contact the ministry by visiting the contact page.



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The Cross

by Apostle Tonya

And he bearing his cross went forth into a place called the place of a skull, which is called in the Hebrew Golgotha:  Where they crucified him, and two other with him, on either side one, and Jesus in the midst.  John 19:17-18

The placement of the Cross of Yeshua HaMashiach, in the center, would seemingly point to be the focal point of the crucifixion of our Blessed Redeemer.  John 19:18

In the Holy Scriptures, we read of the Lord Jesus’ earthly ministry and the warfare He endured as the jealously of the Jewish leaders of His day increased and influenced their hearts to purpose to commit to their tragic decision to oppose the Lord’s Ministry. 

It was the spirit of envy which would be used as satan’s strategy to ultimately use the Jewish leaders to crucify the Lord Jesus.  These leaders hearts would become an easy target to host and carry out the plan of Lucifer.  Therefore, we must assume satan continued to observe the leaders as they grew in being consumed with their hatred and intimidation of Yeshua.  The jealously would become dangerous and release the heels of envy to enter in as the Lord’s miracles, fame and Followers continued to spread and increase in its numbers.  Most assuredly, it was the door of envy that opened during this ancient time to manifest the most tragic story ever written:  the hatred and rejection of His Majesty, the Son of God by His own.  This is most certainly something for us all to learn from for as it is written, “Jealously is as cruel as the grave.” Songs of Solomon 8:6

Most surely, it may be hard for some to imagine how the religious leaders during this ancient time who were consequently extremely privileged to walk side-by-side with the Son of God refused to yield to His authority and Ministry.  It is no great wonder then why we read ofttimes our Blessed One rebuked and confronted the Pharisees and Scribes for their wicked hearts.  Surely, our Blessed Lord knew what was to come.  Matthew 23:13-26

In the Lord’s Earthly ministry, the leaders opposing Him hearts were full of hypocrisy. They refused to see the Blessed One (with the great fame because of the miracles He performed) had not been sent by the Father to be their equal or even to be coronated by man.  This religious thinking whereby the Risen Lord abhorred remaineth an disturbing thorn even in the church today.  

The lowly King, whom ofttimes the Bible records the Jewish leaders audaciously accused of blasphemy was indeed Messiah, the Word manifested in Flesh: the I AM.  Yet, in their distorted perception and commitment to their traditions of how the King would appear to them they walked tragically in the greatest deception recorded in their refusal to bow to the Lord Jesus. 

The Blessed Holy Spirit is faithful to revealeth to us through the Beloved Disciple John in the Book of John, Chapter 19 verse 20 that the Romans positioned the Lord Jesus to be crucified in a city where the census of the Jews was high in population. Further, we read ofttimes in righteous anger of the unstable Pilate and the title he chose to have created for our Lord, placed above the Cross: “JESUS OF NAZARETH THE KING OF THE JEWS”. The title written in Hebrew, Greek and Latin was another part of the plan of satan to humiliate the Son of God. 

Certainly, we see the plot coming to a climax, don’t we?  satan, would use the Jews, Romans, Caiaphas and Pilate to openly shame our Redeemer in the presence of all of the Lord’s Kinsman even as our Blessed One was dying on the Cross.  The deceiver would even conspire that thy Lord’s grave be with wicked criminals.  Yet, blessed be the Lord God Almighty for in satan’s limited knowledge, he did not know of The Plan of Redemption from El De’ot, our God of all Knowledge. Neither would those enemies of thy Lord who purposed in their hearts to expedite His crucifixion during Passover.  The leaders had not been privy to the Secret in The Throne Room of God:  our Lord Jesus had chosen to give of Himself during Passover.  The Father allowed these leaders to hasten His Son’s Execution and it would be our Sovereign God, the Father of Glory who would raise His Son on the third day. 

The wicked one’s decision to prominently place the Lord in the center amongst two criminals in his attempt to disgrace the Lord Jesus was the Father’s will.  The blessed Scriptures strengthen us with the passage recorded in the Book of the Prophet Isaiah, Chapter 53 verse 10:  Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief..  Surely, nothing in this Earth, nor in the kingdom of darkness has greater power than that of Elohim, our Creator.  

This I know, the Disfigurement of our Redeemer’s Face marred by the hands of the enemy; The Cross, approximately 300 pounds in weight that thy Lord carried with great trauma wounds in His Soul from the scourging until He could not carry it alone any longer; The Crown of Thorns from the Lord’s Beloved Israel crowned on His Bleeding Head to further mock our Lamb of God; The Master’s Robe whereby the Word of God point out was made without seam and the soldiers who used the Master’ Robe to gamble with as our Lord was Dying was all for us.  John 3:16

Dear ones, our Great Sufferer bore this traumatizing suffering for love; for us.  O what tears I shed for my Beloved One.  Yet, I am unable to adequately write the words fitting for my love for our Beautiful Savior of whom we are eternally secure in.  

Jesus, I am sorry for the terrible pain you suffered.  Amen.

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He is Risen

By Apostle Tonya

In the end of the sabbath, as it began to dawn toward the first day of the week, came Mary Magdalene and the other Mary to see the sepulchre.  And, behold, there was a great earthquake: for the angel of the Lord descended from heaven, and came and rolled back the stone from the door, and sat upon it.  His countenance was like lightning, and his raiment white as snow:  And for fear of him the keepers did shake, and became as dead men.  And the angel answered and said unto the women, Fear not ye: for I know that ye seek Jesus, which was crucified.  He is not here: for he is risen, as he said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay.  And go quickly, and tell his disciples that he is risen from the dead; and, behold, he goeth before you into Galilee; there shall ye see him: lo, I have told you.  And they departed quickly from the sepulchre with fear and great joy; and did run to bring his disciples word.  And as they went to tell his disciples, behold, Jesus met them, saying, All hail. And they came and held him by the feet, and worshipped Him.   
Matthew 28:1-9

Prophetic Dream about The Royal Family

By Apostle Tonya

He revealeth the deep and secret things: he knoweth what is in the darkness, and the light dwelleth with him.  Daniel 2:22

Ofttimes, after I have awakened from the honor of receiving a dream in my sleep; I sit in awe of El De’ot and His love for us.  Just a few days ago, as I sat with thy Lord concerning certain dreams He had bestowed upon me of the Royal Family; He was ever-faithful to trust me with His Heart and concern for both Queen Elizabeth II and Prince Harry.  Beloved, I am most honored the Blessed Holy Spirit has led me to share this prophetic dream here on Heaven’s Pen.  

In the dream, I was most surprised as I saw Charles, the Prince of Wales sitting alone on a simple park bench.  I watched as Prince Charles sat tearfully (in what appeared to be in the Presence of the Lord God in prayer). 

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Jesus, our Perfect Gift

by Apostle Tonya

As we prepare to celebrate our Risen Lord’s Resurrection; I have experienced a marvelous time with the Holy Spirit preparing for teachings.   The Blessed One has faithfully led me in a season of discovery of ancient books on thy Lord, documentaries and several Christian family movies to further my study of the Lord’s Footsteps during His Earthly ministry.  In this, I have enjoyed the most precious child-like moments delighting in Jesus. 

Most recently, I wrote of watching a movie whereby had become most dear to me about our Beloved Lord.  The Perfect Gift is a pure motion picture portrayed by actors with hearts of the King. It is not one from Hollywood to share only of a Biblical account of Jesus, rather, this pure film accurately depicts the Heart of our Lord and is both directed and portrayed by Jefferson Moore whom the Lord chose to prepare for his assignment at His Feet.  Surely, what was poured into him is one of the treasures of our Risen Lord, His lowliness.


What I suppose is the most thought-provoking scene about our Perfect Gift unfolded at its conclusion when Mr. Moore (portraying our Lord in another form) delivered his most powerful line and stated, quite simply:  

“The thing that fills people heart usually starts to show up everywhere around them.”  

For many days, I have pondered on this profound statement with great tears for the Blessed Lord.  Because for me, it is my love for Jesus; it surrounds me everywhere. It’s also this ministry which was birthed after years of prayer and built by the Lord Jesus with His Directions given in His Appearances to me and in my dreams.  And, it is the Holy Bible which I hold tightly and is beside me even while I am asleep. 

Let us giveth the Eternal One reverence and honor for giving us, His Son, our Redeemer, the Ultimate Sacrifice:  The Christ who was Crucified for our sins and raised up on the third day by our Holy Father who shewed Him openly and most triumphantly.  Amen. 

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Revival is Coming

by Apostle Tonya

This year, as the Body of Christ prepare to gather to celebrate the miraculous Resurrection of our Blessed Lord Jesus many continue to face a Church which doors yet remain close or are banned from worshipping the Lord as a result of the pandemic and laws governed by their state.  Be not dismayed, the gates that temporarily prohibit our corporate fellowship that the Lord has promise flourishes and empower us shall come down.  And the Lord says, We shall reap the spoils of the war and rejoice with a revival that will sweep throughout our land.  

A prayer of Habakkuk the prophet upon Shigionoth.  O Lord, I have heard thy speech, and was afraid:  O Lord, revive thy work in the midst of the years, in the midst of the years make known; in wrath remember mercy.  Habakkuk 3:1-2

Pursuing Jesus

By Apostle Tonya

This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob.  Selah.  Psalm 24:6

Ofttimes, people ask what it is I pray to our Blessed Father that result in His swift answers.  I gather it is simply my love for Him that often move the Father’s Heart and tips the Bowl.  Revelation 5:8

If I may, I would like to share what I discovered over the course of a few years when I spent night and day resting at the Feet of our Lord Jesus.  Thy Lord most desire to spend time with us and has often kept me in His Presence to protect me. And the Lord also honors the relationship that we develop with Him in prayer and cherishes the time we sit in His Blessed Presence.  

Many times, we may found ourselves overwhelmed with what we must accomplish in a day. Thus, it may appear to you impossible to set aside a great length of quiet time with the Lord Jesus, but our Lord desire it.  Our Beloved Lord adores when we seek Him early in the morning and oftentimes we do not arise with our hearts directed toward Him in thanks.  Yet, the Lord Jesus is faithful to wait for us.  There are times, we can become consumed with our professions, spouses, text messages and social media.  Dear ones, the Lord should be the first we speak to every morning in our hearts, our eyes should behold His glory first.  Even in marriage, we must riseth while it is yet night and give our adoration to our Rose of Sharon, the Lord Jesus.  This is the heart after God’s own.

Most surely, you can easily remember the experience of falling in love.  Love will give you a desire to know even the smallest details about the person who has captured your heart.  This, I too, most enjoyed.  Yet, I desire to love thy Lord the most and pursue Him throughout my day by studying the Footsteps that He walked on Earth.  I also enjoy reading and listening to the Word of God and worshipping the Lord Jesus.  Most recently, I began watching television after nearly 11 years without it.  While I most enjoy watching Elmo; there are quite a few pure movies which have recently become favorites of mine.  Particularly, a movie about the Lord which aptly reenacted His Heart.  In this movie, the brilliant actor who portrayed our King astonishingly captured the lowly Heart of whom I love the most, Jesus.  

I am most grateful that despite me our Blessed One abodes in my home and also in the ministry workspace where He is exalted with glorious worship.  As believers, we must seek to keep the Lord welcomed in our hearts, homes, ministries and His Church.  I encourage you to guard your hearts from any teaching that does not exalt the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

In the Book of John, Chapter 14 verse 21,  the Lord Jesus’ Discussion with His Disciples continued with a most profound commandment:  

“He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me:  and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.  

Our obedience to Him is what our Lord has commanded.  An obedient heart is a heart that loves the Lord Jesus no matter what it may cost.  Most surely, there is a great price we must pay when we obey our Blessed One.  Yet, thy Lord is faithful.  He responds to our obedience gloriously as He also does to our tears of prayer.  I most certainly can say that He has never forsaken me in those painful nights with my pillow drenched with tears.  As the psalmist David most poignantly wrote in Psalm 6:6:  I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears.

I am grateful for the Holy Spirit whom gathered each tear of my sufferings; just as He gathered every Drop of our Beloved Jesus’ Blood that was Shed for us. His Love for us is unmeasurable. Surely our moans and tears swiftly move the Heart of our Father!  

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Prophetic Dream about President Joe Biden

By Apostle Tonya

Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.  John 16:13

Thy Lord continues in His faithfulness and lovingkindness to show those things to come in our Blessed Country.  In a recent dream, I was with three of my family members watching a President of the United States speak.  The Former President appeared downhearted as he spoke into a microphone:  “Joe Biden is sick.”  These startling words were the only ones spoken by him that I heard him speak in the dream.

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Prayer of Thanksgiving for the Holy Spirit

By Apostle Tonya

Blessed One of Israel, we enter into Your gates with thanksgiving and praise; thanking You for Your mercy, grace and for causing us to hear thy lovingkindness every morning.  Wonderful Father, we declare that You are a Holy God and we reverence You.   Father, we are honored that You giveth Ear to our petitions as written in 1 John 5:14-15.  This morning, as we receive from You new mercies; we arise to giveth You thanks for our Beloved Lord Jesus and the Holy Spirit.  Thank You for the Word as written in John 14:16:   And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever.  Thy Lord promised the Disciples that He would pray for another Comforter who would abide with them forever.  Lord, we bless and honor You for sending the precious gift of the Holy Spirit, our Dearest Comforter on Earth who dwelleth in us.  Holy Spirit, we beseech You to continue to teach us to be Your Friend and we thank You for Your Wonderful Presence that remaineth.  We love and adore you, Blessed Holy Spirit.  Amen.

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