By Apostle Tonya
Thou art my God, and I will praise thee: thou art my God, I will exalt thee. Psalm 118:28
The Blessed Father was most faithful during a season of affliction to allow its thorn to remaineth on me for His glory. In this, I entered into a glorious hiding place of intimacy with our Most Holy Father, the Ancient of Days. In awe, I delighted in thy Lord often with joy that surpassed the suffering. His grace was sufficient.
The temple in my home is where the Holy One met me. Great was the faithfulness of our magnificent Lord God to giveth me patience in affliction and a love for Him that surpasses the love in my heart for anyone. It was only by the Lord’s abounding grace I prepared for the time of intimacy with Him meticulously (certain holy worship albums and spontaneous worship as I adored and worshipped Him). The Comforter, my Dearest Friend taught me how to stand before Him. Who is like unto thee, O LORD, among the gods? who is like thee, glorious in holiness, fearful in praises, doing wonders? Exodus 15:11
Ofttimes, people desire to know how is it I am able to see thy Lord and why does He rests on me supernaturally this way. Dear ones, there is nothing good about me. This manifestation of thy Lord’s glory is about Him; not me. Let us keep our eyes fixed upon our Risen Lord.
Surely we have all experienced trauma, loss and unexpected grief. Most especially, this occurred for many during the pandemic. For me, thy Lord used a dark season of immeasurable loss and sufferings to train and prepare me for this unusual life with Him. It was this certain season whereby I was graced to stand and walk a path both of great shame and pain; and I have not received the blessed grace and favor to write of it for the Father’s glory. Praise be unto our Righteous Father who is ever-faithful to us in trials and persecution. For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8:18. Great is our reward.
For a day in thy courts is better than a thousand. I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God, than to dwell in the tents of wickedness. Psalm 84:11
Most splendid was the beauty of rest in the Lord God in that pivotal past season. Night and day, I continued to delight in worship, reading to Him out-loud the Holy Bible and sowing in tears to thy Faithful Healer for Him to consider the affliction and release the manifestation of healing whereby Abba was faithful to set before me. During this time, the Master was most faithful to once again Appear to me during the daylight as I sat resting in Him. After thy Lord’s Visitation, I continued to sit in awe of His Blessed Appearance. It was then I realized the Faithful One withheld His answer to heal me and would wait to heal me for some time to come.
Our Blessed King has been most gracious to bestow upon me the favor of His glorious Appearances for a long season. Oftentimes, it has been when I was in the midst of a season of trials. The Lamb of God hath Appeared even rocking me (in the spirit) as an Earthly Father would rock His young child to sleep. Surely I am not worthy; yet, I am most thankful for thy Lord’s love, mercy and protection. How can I measure the Love of my Beloved Lord?
Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby. Hebrews 12:11
Ofttimes, I have received revelation from the Lord after a season or a trial has concluded. This is how the Lord God has chosen to speak to me for a time when there was a matter dear to my heart or an affliction. Thy Lord is a Righteous God and in a past season where I did not chose the right decisions; His eyes remained upon me. How faithful is our Blessed Father to loveth me beyond those decisions and allow the enemy to attack my body for His glory. It most surely pleased thy Lord for me to suffer awhile to humble me.
Beloved, the Blessed One most desire intimacy with His Children. The Father desires us to be still in His Holy Presence. This is a time to entereth into the Holy One’s Presence and poureth your love on Him; singing to Him and making melody in your hearts. For it is in this blessed place of wonder with our Lord He is faithful to cause us to receive from Him and grow deeper in our intimacy, strength and in wisdom. Let nothing come before Our Beloved One. Our hearts must remaineth on fire for Him.
Worthy is the Lord God!
But as for me, I will come into thy house in the multitude of thy mercy; and in thy fear will I worship toward thy holy temple. Psalm 5:7
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